The Search for Happiness
For my entire 32 years of life on this earth I have searched for what I “assumed” was happiness. Don’t you know what they say about assuming? It makes an ass out of you AND me, and I did just that. I searched high and low for this so called magical unicorn called happiness. Wasn’t everyone searching for the same thing? It was like an egg hunt and I was that anxious kid running through the grass looking for money or chocolates or anything that could satisfy me in that very moment. I needed Instant gratification.
As I grew older I thought I discovered it while using drugs, or going to parties, or dating different exciting men, or taking medication for my severe depression. You name it, I’ve tried it! I also knew for a FACT it had to be out there because I could see with my own eyes that everyone had perfect lives online! They had beautiful well behaved kids, lavish cars and toys, houses with white picket fences, amazing bodies, successful careers AND the prince charming! I didn’t get it... Where else can I find it? I had very high expectations that it would fall into my lap any day now, so I waited. Sitting on my ass just twiddling my thumbs hoping that one day the sky would light up and a big beam of light would shoot down upon me and bless me with all of things I’ve ever wanted. That never happened. Crazy right?
What I finally realized was you can’t actually find happiness, it isn’t in a material object, a monetary value, or in another person. You can actually CREATE it from within yourself. Wait... what!? It took me 30 years to find that out? So what your saying is I could’ve been happy this whole time? Ugh...
Here are just a few ways I have CREATED my own happiness from within:
1. I let go of others opinions about me.
2. I let go of toxic relationships.
3. I Meditate.
4. I started to eat a healthy diet and started exercising.
5. I went to therapy.
6. I stopped believing that everything on social media was real.
7. I found ways to manage my chronic pain.
8. I found many passions and give them 100%.
9. I became kinder to myself.
10. I stopped seeking happiness in other people, material objects and money.
You can be happy too, just stop searching.
Xoxo, Brigitte Freeman