Life can be beautiful. With that beauty also comes pain and sorrow. This year has been hard on everyone. I consider myself to be especially lucky during this time as I have been able to keep my job and preserve through school, keeping up my GPA despite classes being especially hard online. I suffer from depression and having my entire life be flipped upside down and experiencing extreme change is terrifying. I have gone through waves and there were times when I wasn’t sure if I would have the will to get up out of bed.
Despite everything scary and overwhelming that has been going on, I have had so many amazing things happen this year and that makes me happy. I’ve continued to stay sober and have had so many opportunities to help people. I’ve been able to get more involved with my daughter's school and gotten the opportunity to practice and teach her patience. I have gotten to make precious memories with friends and family.
I got a new kitten that has lit up my little family’s life. I am finally starting to feel like I’ve made progress towards starting nursing school. I had been taking class after class and it had previously felt like I was barley making a dent. Finally, I have begun the process of getting my daughter back full time. I got her her own private health insurance policy and I had no shortage of people willing to help me and write amazing character letters for me to give to the judge. I choose to look at the beautiful moments for 2020 instead of the dark and ugly.
I choose to be happy.